Part of me wishes to return to the United States to be closer to my family, but another part of me wishes to stay here in order to pursue my musical dreams.
So, which part do I listen to? It is undoubtedly difficult to try to live in both places part-time, and I am unsure what to do. However, perhaps the answer will come to me naturally, and I will be guided in the right direction in some way. Maybe if I moved back home, I would find myself feeling empty working for the local contractor I was working for and running in the same old mouse race as before. I moved here eight years ago to do comedy and didn’t have this yearning to come back and be with my family and friends, and maybe this feeling came after my ex and I broke up a year ago. The local contractor in town advised me to follow my heart, but my heart is telling me two contradictory messages, and I am not sure which to believe. I suppose time will tell me what to do, so doing my Heating and Air Conditioning rep task and focusing on my music may be the best thing to do right now when I am not sure which direction to transfer in. I also believe that if cherish enters my life, it will be a good sign that I should stay where I am, but this has yet to happen. For the time being, I will clean my washable filter in my apartment.